So I had an interview for a job with
the Dept of Health recently, which was exciting. It was dealing with
substance abuse and tobacco prevention for a county in south FL. (Not
exactly what I studied, but it's health promotion, which I was
exposed to a little in my classes at USF). I also had an interview
for a community health worker job which dealt with traveling to
patients' homes or hospitals, etc. and conducting assessments to
determine appropriate resources for them. Also not exactly what I
studied, but something that sounded interesting to me. I'm all about
exploring as many things as possible in life. Have you ever felt like
you wanted to do (or try) everything? How do you even know what
you'll like if you've never done it? Ah, the game of life.
What will help me get better
physically? I try not to talk about my personal health issues too
much, but it's been a while, hasn't it? My health issue is probably
most closely related to an eating disorder. (I hesitate to call it
that for a few reasons, but for simplicity's sake, I will for now).
It's something that happened as a result of frustration with working
sedentary jobs for a time after I finished undergrad. And maybe from
losing the sense of community I had at FSU. It could've been various
things. But I had the idea that working in fitness would fix me. But
I think by the time I got to studying fitness for my master's, it was
too late. It kinda made things a little worse, actually. But fitness
led to health and wellness coaching, and I thought that might be the
answer. I wouldn't have to be physically active myself, but I could
still have a job that would get me out of my own head. (What I mean
by that is when you have challenging and engaging tasks, those things
can make you forget about your own body. Theoretically). Not sure if
it is the answer or not, as I haven't been able to test it out fully.
But I can say that I want something with a variety of tasks where I'm
not doing the same thing all day. Both of the jobs I interviewed for
definitely had that.
Another job that seems appealing to me
would be working at the library. I worked at one once, shortly before
I moved to L.A. I didn't stay because at the time, my dream was
acting and I was a naïve 23 yr old who didn't know better. But out
of all my jobs, that library one was a good one. I don't know why I
didn't think of applying for it before going to grad school. It
didn't occur to me. And would going back to that now be a waste of
everything else I've been exploring? Well, it's something I'll gladly
take if the other things don't work out. (If I could even get it.
Could lightning strike twice?)
Reading is a lifelong passion of mine.
No matter what job or career I end up having, my time outside of work
will always be looked forward to for my escape into other worlds.
Sometimes I wish I could spend all my time reading, lol. This sort of
brings me to another topic regarding passion and work. I used to want
my work to be my life. I wanted to make a living off my passion. Does
it sound crazy to not want that? I'm not saying I don't want to be
passionate about what I do for work; I do. But I think I don't want
to merge my reading passion in particular. I want that to be
separate and purely for pleasure.
P.S. - I don't often mention specific
books on here, but the Mara Dyer series which I just finished was
phenomenal. And so is the follow-up, The Shaw Confessions. I am in
love with Noah Shaw. I know he is fictional, but still.
